I had to reblog this again cuz I just can’t get enought. It cracks my shit up
The feeling of being absolutely 100% crazy in love and still falling even after a year is just mind blowing. When you think you can’t possibly love someone more, and you wake up the next day and you love them so much more. It happens every single day.
I still feel like there is something in my life that needs to happen that hasnt. Like something isn’t quite right, not quite complete. I still have this raging burning desire to travel. Take an entire year or so, buy a video camera, throw my boyfriend in the car, and just start fucking driving. No plans. No maps. Just hit the coast and follow it, meeting so many new people, seeing new things, experiencing new moments, making new memories. Sleeping on the beach, skinny dipping in the ocean, just embracing being young and living. Hit the mountain side, disneyworld, the great forest in northern cali, camping in the summer, hiking, just everything nature. Everything unknown. Finding out exactly what my soul is made of.
But at the same time…..I feel an urge now to grow up. Keep my awesome job, make great money, get a nice house for me and my dogs this fall, possibly my boyfriend. paying off my new car. investing in awesome stuff like a system for my car, a sectional for my beautiful living room, dining room table, and just being grown up. Marrying the love of my life, spend every single night by his side. All that sounds just so incredible too.
I love Chad with everything that I am. Every single fucking molecule. But sometimes, I wonder if we met just a couple years too early.
I guess you can’t have the best of both worlds. To be with the one you love, sometimes it takes sacrifice.
I’m just going to keep praying that God is keeping me on the right track, and that this is where he wants me to be. As long as I trust in him, I can’t go wrong. I mean, it still blows my mind that the Lord blessed me already with what I have. An amazing family, the absolute most perfect man I’ve ever met, my sweet baby girls (Wendi and Angel) that are basicly my kids…I guess I can’t compalin. It just doesn’t get any better than this. Life is great